From Christmas to New years ...

I never thought in a million years I would say it ... but I must ... I did NOT have my baby before Christmas. Did anybody on this planet think that would ever happen??? We opened all her gifts without her and had no baby to stuff in an oversized stocking to stick under the tree for adorable pictures. Instead my belly grew bigger and my discomfort stronger ... Now we wait ... shifting our gears to ... HAVING A NEW YEARS BABY ... wow, then again I just looked at the calendar and realized that that date is only 6 days away, and at this point I wouldn't put anything past the "toddler" living inside me. She is on her own schedule. For the sake of the switchover of insurance we have starting on January 1st, and the massive headache and sheer chaos that may come from it, will you all be praying that somehow we can have her, and be out of the hospital by the 31st? We know that whatever happens the Lord will take care of us, but why not ask the Lord for specifics right, asking in His WILL. Also be praying that I can somehow deliver an overdue baby WITHOUT induction and without a C section ... Love you all, Merry Christmas and a very happy new year from the Wilsons 2.99999!!!

My daughter is due today, December 20th 2010!!!

Baby Brynn, with my one and only doll growing up. Her name was Ninja Baby. Can you tell I grew up with brothers?

Baby Jeremey looking super cute in his onesie, with that same smile and energy for life as he has now!

I have never been more emotional in my life than I am right now ... (haha) so many hormones. I just looked at the clock and it is 12:20 on 12/20. I have been waiting for this day for 10 months, and the emotions just hit me like a weight I have never felt before. My daughter is due TODAY. Now I know it could still be days away, but there is something about this certain day arriving that sends shivers across my skin, and anxiousness through my blood, and a joy/fear so great through my heart that I truly don't even know what emotion I am feeling anymore. hahaha. I was so certain I would not make it to this day during my pregnancy, in fact I would have bet nearly anything I would deliver early. So now I lay here feeling like I have been thrown to the wind, wandering aimlessly toward a date that only the Lord knows. I have heard countless things about the physical discomfort and pain you feel at the 40th week of pregnancy, but how come nobody ever told me that I would feel like a teenage girl, on her period, after getting dumped before prom, on the day her dog died, while being stranded on a desert island??? TOTAL exaggeration, but none the less, I am a nut. hahaha. Poor poor husband of mine. I Love you Jeremey! So today is the day, and unless things pick up really quickly I think today is going to come and go pretty quickly. With Christmas being so close there is this extra hint of stress to get this baby out soon, but I suppose at this point, we will be celebrating her birthday in July regardless, so she doesn't feel jipped of a birthday her whole life. Thank you to the many many who have been praying. Sorry if I haven't responded back to some of your messages, calls or texts lately, know that I read each one, and am grateful beyond words for your concern and Love. Baby _ _ _ _ _ middle name Wilson. You have been a wonderful, energy filled, vibrant little trooper inside my belly for 10 months. We prayed countless prayers for you to develop fully and to grow strong, we have wept over you, jumped for joy over you, spent hours upon hours watching and feeling you move, and have had a gazillion people guess your name (to which not one person has EVER guessed. to all you guessers out there) We could not be more excited that you have made it this far, and will continue to wait till you are ready. Just know your mom has a lot of growing to do in the area of PATIENCE ... hint hint. Come soon!

Not yet, but soon!

39 weeks, and really looking BIG

I'm back, and might be back again still. Nope, no baby yet ... trust me I am more anxious than anyone. But now I have switched into, "I don't think this baby is ever going to come out mood." I realized just a couple days ago something pretty significant. Since being sick for over 4 years with no answers to any of my symptoms, I have a strange but real "complex" that forces me into believing that all physical symptoms I ever get, whether that be a cold, a hang nail, the flu, anything, will never leave or never heal. I have realized that I have done the same thing with pregnancy. Somewhere deep within me I actually think that my pregnancy symptoms will never go away, and that this baby will just continue to grow and grow just the same way my real illness has. Weird huh? With my chronic vertigo there is no tangible light at the end of the tunnel, besides heaven of course, and daily I forget that this baby WILL COME OUT. The breaking back pain will subside, my bladder, and pelvic pain will subside. My nausea will go away, heartburn will take a hike, I will be able to walk without shooting pains, and feeling as though im going to pass out. I will be able to sleep better (but less, I know), and I will be able to see the fruits of my labor, and hold in my arms all that was causing so much discomfort! Being pregnant is NOT chronic. But I keep thinking it is. S0 strange how your brain can play tricks on you, well, actually it's the enemy who is playing the tricks on me. He is trying to steal my joy, and make me see pregnancy the same way I see chronic illness. He is not going to win though!

At the beginning of this semester, Jeremey and I had a long list of events and "to do's" leading up to the birth of our baby. The list was quite daunting, as fall is such a busy season for most people. It seemed as though our checklist of birthdays, and weddings, filming weddings, anniversarys, work projects and other deadlines would never end and we would never reach the final box to check off (our babies due date). But we have made it. The final event to check off our list was the end of the fall semester and the finalizing of the semester highlight video for the students. This is one of Jeremey's main focus' here on campus, and it's a great tool to take home to friends and family to show them what goes on each semester. The video I posted below is the ending of the this years highlights. The full video can be seen at www.calvarychapelbiblecollege.com. It's sort of a surreal video for me to watch as it signifies a very long season, leading up to such a great ending. Though this video can mean so many different things to the students and staff here on campus, to me, it means WE HAVE MADE IT. The Lord has carried us through to the finish line. Here we go!

(Our due date is in one week. We will let every one of our dear friends know through mass text when she arrives. Do not worry, we aren't going to leave you in the dark, and will try to contact you through text before you randomly find out on facebook. We have had a few requests from friends and family that they would like to be informed as soon as I start going into labor, so they can pray through the whole grueling process right when it is happening, which will be much needed. I know that most of you will not want to know, or be woken up in the middle of the night, I totally understand. But if you are one of the crazy ones ;) send me a message on here, or on facebook and let me know and we will put you on the "no matter what time of day" list. It could still be up to two weeks, or tonight ... Pray SHE COMES SOON!)