"This is a story that is often untold, and overlooked. A raw adventure of fighting the elements of illness, as a young wife and mother by seeking Jesus first. Start from the beginning, and see how the Lord can take a very broken and ill individual and bring about a truly unique LIFE and LOVE story." - BRYNN (& Jeremey and Tatum).

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

9 1/2 weeks pictures --- going on 14 weeks!!!

Well here is our first ultrasound from when our baby was only 9 1/2 weeks along. Now we are into week 14 and will be getting the big daddy of ultrasounds (THE GENDER REVEAL) in 3 days!!! So our little peanut is about 5 weeks bigger than the pictures above, nearly triple the size. So don't be alarmed when the next pictures we post actually look like a human. Though if you actually look close, and if this picture were taken with a normal camera other than photobooth, you can actually see where the babies head is, and how its little body is kicking its feet in the air!!! Head on left, body on right. Jeremey and thought our baby did a FINE job of posing for the camera and not looking like a blob, go baby you are a natural!!! Good thing because your mommy is a master picture taker, and your daddy is gonna have your whole life recorded on video! We really Love this kid, more than we realized could even be possible, especially at this stage. Though I have been very sick, and continue to have strange symptoms (I'll discuss that later) I'm beginning to see glimpses of what is to come when our little one is blessing our life with smiles and cuddles, and throw up and dirty diapers. What a joy. Hope you all enjoy the pictures. Sorry they are hard to see.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

So CLOSE to my second trimester!

Well, I'm about 4 days out ... till I cross the line from 1st trimester nightmares to 2nd trimester bliss ...

...NO, I really don't believe that when the magical 14th week of pregnancy begins that I will be walking on clouds. Knowing ME, and the crazy and unpredictable body I have, the second trimester will come with its equally challenging trials.

Today, we went for our second ultrasound. Actually, our appointment was on Tuesday, but somehow we had remembered the date wrong. I thought it was the 25th, so I was counting down the days, hours and minutes, till I could hear my babies heartbeat again. Then Jeremey pulled out our appointment card from his wallet last night, and just hung his head with a big "OH NO." I stayed calm for about 30 seconds till I then broke down realizing that I might not be able to see my baby for another 4 weeks. I wasn't really trusting the Lord at all, and sure enough we got an appointment today!!! PRAISE THE LORD. To my surprise, all the doctor did was check the heartbeat quickly through one of those doppler machines and then it was OVER. No picture!!!!! I've been staring at our 9 weeks ultrasound for the last 4 weeks, and couldn't wait to see how it had grown ... I suppose it's safer not to do to many ultrasounds, but I sure would have liked to see our little bugger squirming around in there. Hopefully in the next 2 weeks we will be able to get one of those 4-D ultrasounds done and find out what the gender of our little girl is ... wait ... yes ... I said little girl. I have a feeling, we both have a feeling. But would obviously be thrilled with little a miniature Jeremey as well!!!

It's funny, I think I have pregnancy brain or something. I was convinced I was growing out my clothes, and couldn't really look at myself in a full length mirror without feeling strange and abnormal, only to find out that I had LOST 2 pounds. WHAT??? Am I crazy ... maybe so. Anyways, I have been quite nauseated since week 7 or so, so thats about 7 weeks of trying my darndest to try to keep food down with little success. I don't know why I was surprised that I lost weight. I think I was assuming that the scale would tip over when I stepped on it in the doctors office, but then they kept moving that little bar to the left. Hmmm, as long as the baby is fine, I'll be fine! Jeremey and I are so thankful that our little one is surviving the harsh conditions of a sick momma. That is one strong and resilient baby!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Meet the Wilsons

Well, I assume that if you are reading this, then you probably know me. Maybe you are a dear friend, a family member, an acquatience, or perhaps you are one of the few who in a bored mindless internet cruise session stumbled upon my blog. If you are any of those, WELCOME, and if you are the later, then I presume that I should quickly tell you a bit about myself.

I am a Christian, a sinner who is saved by Jesus Christ's Blood. Someone who is weak and imperfect in so many ways, yet made perfect in HIS image.

I am 25 years old, and my name is Brynn Wilson. Not Bryan, or Brian, and yes if you are confused by the name, then you are perfectly normal. It's been mistaken for a boy name my entire life, and I think I'm finally starting to get to get use to it. I was born in Portland Oregon, the great Northwest, hence the falling leaves used as the background for this blog. I now currently reside in Southern California, beautiful, warm, current, stylish California, but would any given day, any time, any situation prefer the Northwest over the South. But regardless of my geographical preferences I know that CALIFORNIA is where I am suppose to be (for now at least), and that brings me to my next point...

I am married to a wonderful, Godly, creative and highly energetic man, Jeremey Wilson, the Love of my life! We met 5 years ago, in the same place that we live today. Murrieta California on the Calvary Chapel bible college campus. Jeremey works at the audio/visual department here, and does a variety of jobs, but the one in which he has the greatest passion for is movie making. Often when he or I tell this to people, there is an overall sense of confusion. I can't blame you, I would probably be a bit confused as well. "how does someone work at a small bible college and make movies, isn't that kind of an oxymoron?" Well, yes, but thats the beauty of it all. Despite the small school, lack of equipment, actors, actresses, and overall time, haha, my husbands desire to write, produce, film and edit full feature movies that GLORIFY the Lord is what he is called to do, and he has made it happen, with the Lords help, time and time again. I might be biased, though before I even knew him I believed the same thing ... he is gifted in this area, and is going to be used mightily by the Lord!

I on the other hand, do not work here at the college. I don't work outside of the college either. In fact, I do not work at all. Some may say "well thats strange" and others may say "wow, what a life, you can do whatever you want" haha. To both, I say "not quite." The reason I do not work, is not because I am lazy, not because I am stooped in heaps of money, and not because I am a stay at home mom, but because for the last 4 years I have been very ill. In the summer of 2006, after living 21 years of health and adventure, the Lord allowed for me to become ill. He didn't cause it, and it wasn't a curse, it was just what was planned out for my life. I have a rare disorder, that in fact, is so rare that it has never been fully diagnosed. I suffer from a severe neurological disorder that hinders my day to day life very much. In the blogs to come I'm sure this subject will become like beating a dead horse, so I won't spend a lengthy amount of time on it just yet. Just know that the Lord is bringing me through each day, some harder than others, and one day I WILL be healed, whether on this earth or in heaven!

Finally, to the most exciting and anticipated part of my life, and the very reason why I started this blog. I AM PREGNANT!!! 13 weeks, and truckin along. After the last paragraph you may be thinking, "WHAT, I don't get it, why would they do that?" HAHA, we didn't, well not entirely. THE LORD DID. He knew the desires of both Jeremey and my heart, and has blessed us with a little he or she that will soon change our lives forever. We are so thrilled to see where this new stage and new life takes us. Many people over the years have asked or suggested that I start a blog, but I never thought I possessed anything interesting enough in my life to share with the world, that most other people haven't already gone or are going through. (I know that is untrue in many ways, and that everyones life has a unique story to tell), but I had always told myself that I would never start a blog till I got pregnant, haha, silly I know. I think I was assuming that the day would never come. But now it has, and I believe there is a unique story to tell about becoming a mother under such tremendous circumstances and trials, something most probably haven't experienced. Many people have wondered how it is possible, especially me and hopefully through this blog we will all be able to see the miraculous works of the Lord, as He uses the broken to bring a new and beautiful life into this world. I guess for now this blog should be called, "The Wilsons 2 1/2."

My first blog post ever!

Just seeing if this works!