"This is a story that is often untold, and overlooked. A raw adventure of fighting the elements of illness, as a young wife and mother by seeking Jesus first. Start from the beginning, and see how the Lord can take a very broken and ill individual and bring about a truly unique LIFE and LOVE story." - BRYNN (& Jeremey and Tatum).

Friday, April 15, 2011

Update: Trusting the Lord and bringing my family back together!




So I'm sorry for the cliffhanger I left you with in my last blog, here is a little update:

Indeed, I did get sick enough as to where I had to leave for Arizona (but the test results came back that I did NOT have mono! Praise the Lord) ... the final day I was in California I found myself in such an intense spin (vertigo episode) that I was laying on my couch hanging onto the sides in fear that I might fly off, while my husband fed me food bite by bite. I was overwhelmed by fear and I crying hysterically. The Lord heard our INTENSE cries though, and by the next morning (the morning I packed up and left with Jeremeys family to head back to Arizona) the spin had slowed down enough so that I could walk from room to room while holding onto the walls. This was a HUGE step in the right direction. I said goodbye to Jeremey, and Tatum, Jeremey's mom and dad, and sister Stephanie and I were off. What a strange and eerie feeling it was to drive away from my home, with my baby, while waving to my husband, not having any clue as to when or if we would be back ...


We spent the next week in Arizona with lots of family, trying to recover and regain back strength. Jeremey's mom was a saint and truly did go above and beyond in caring for Tatum while I was down. Bit by bit I began to feel more stable ... well more stable for me at least, stable enough to sit upright in a high back chair without falling sideways. But nonetheless after many many days I was finally able to hold my baby girl and spend time with her. To make a long story short, when Jeremey drove down the next weekend on Friday to see us, I actually decided to head back home with him on Sunday despite the original plan for me to stay there at least a month. I know SHOCKER right? It was a big risk, but I felt that the benefits of being back in my own home, with my husband, and his help, outweighed the risks. That, and I truly believed that I was capable to carefully and wisely take care of Tatum during the day on my own. Can you guess what happened next??? The drama continues ... YES, its true when I got home, the intense spinning began AGAIN ... and fear struck even harder ... What had I done??? Did I just make the biggest mistake of my life in coming back prematurely??? "LORD HELP US" is ALL that we could pray. Minute by minute I got through my first 2 days alone with her, praying that the Lord would keep Tatum and I both from harm, till eventually Jeremey and I concluded that I really did need help with her during the day. This is something that is so hard for me toadmit, it's so prideful, but I mean seriously, who wants to ask someone to help to take care of your very own baby??? I sure didn't, but most obviously my pride needs to take a hike, and I needed to understand that the well being of my baby is much more important that an image. I cannot help how sick I am and this is something that is very hard for me to cope with. But in reality it is the truth. I DO NOT have control over my illness. The neat part is, is that we are realizing that if I can find help with Tatum in the early morning, while I try to rest and get a few more hours of sleep, that I am able to care for her better during the rest of the day. With my insomnia, I will try to run off 3 hours of sleep, with a chronic illness, while caring for a 3 month old, and my body in turn CRASHES. It just can't handle it. Those couple of hours in the morning have been making a HUGE difference. So thank you Kim and Katie for helping out this week!


So this is where we find ourselfs, still waiting for the Lord to direct us. Fortunate timing for us, this next week is spring break here on campus, so we are all headed to Arizona for the week!!! Hopefully we will be able to rest up even more, and come back with a little more understanding as to how the Lord wants us to handle this situation. We appreciate all of your prayers, and we truly believe that the reason my test results did NOT come back positive for mono, was because of the many prayers that were lifted up. There is no other way to explain it ... it was a miracle! It was one of those moments in my life where I could truly sense the Lords healing power on my body!!!


Onto more exciting news: Tatum is a riot. No but really this kid has got some real spunk. She weighs somewhere around 14 pounds now, is 3 1/2 months old and she thinks she rules the coop. She hates her carseat with such a passion that it's scary. Hopefully she will grow out of that soon. She sleeps from about 8:30pm-7:00am with a 3:30 feeding. For a couple weeks she was making it from about 8:30-6:30 and we couldn't believe it ... I guess it was a fluke though, cuz she is back to her night owl ways. At about 2 months she was rolling over from belly to back, around 2 1/2 she started rolling from back to belly, and now she is doing both so often that when I lay her down on her playmat, before I even stand back up she has flipped over and rolled off. From what I "read" these things are happening a little sooner than average. I'm thrilled she is advancing so wonderfully, but it is a scary thing when your mother in law who has 14 grandchildren says "whoa this baby is going to give you a run for your money, she is one smart cookie." She even has the ability (I've seen it a couple times) to lift her knees up while on her belly and scoot herself ... Lord have mercy on me, she is WAY too young. Pretty much she is the little sparkplug that everyone expected her to be, coming from Wilson blood. Gosh we stinkin Love her and her ever-growing chubby cheeks and beautiful blue eyes. I never want her to grow up!

1 comment:

  1. We loved hanging out with Tatum the other day...in fact, after I dropped her back off with Jeremey, the twins kept asking "Where's the baby?" They already missed her! :) When you guys get back from Spring Break, we will set up another day when we could watch her for you in the morning...I know we could do it at least one morning a week, it could even be a regular weekly thing if you needed it! You guys are a blessing! Have a great, relaxing, restful time with your family...God bless you all! We will be praying for you! :)

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