"This is a story that is often untold, and overlooked. A raw adventure of fighting the elements of illness, as a young wife and mother by seeking Jesus first. Start from the beginning, and see how the Lord can take a very broken and ill individual and bring about a truly unique LIFE and LOVE story." - BRYNN (& Jeremey and Tatum).

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

A little defining moment!

There are many defining moments in ones life ... most we know about and anticipate, (graduating highschool, college, getting married, and having children.) All huge moments that most people, at least most women, will shed at least one tear over. But sometimes there are defining times in our lifes that are small yet huge at that exact moment. Things that you would not have anticpated getting so emotional over, or at least you had never thought about it before. One of these happened to me last night. It was simple, but one of those instances where your mind stops for a second to think about the next 18 years. My tiny baby made the transition from swaddled in a bassinet next to our bed to sleeping in her own room in her crib. I know some parents put thier children in thier own room right from the start, but with my health we really wanted to keep her near us for the first bit of her life. This is such a mom/female thing to get emotinal about, but it hit me hard in a way that made me feel like she was packing up and leaving for college already. Though there is truly only a single wall seperating her from our room, it felt like miles away. Which got me thinking about the day she gets her own bed, or leaves for her first day of school, and so on ... my mind hit turbo speed, and it didn't help that Jeremey and I had the song "Best I ever had" by vertical horizon playing in the background randomly. One of those emotionally defining songs that plays during movie montages when a couple breaks up or a child leaves for college (look it up if you get a chance). It was almost laughable, the whole situation ... but still a little heart wrenching. My girl is getting TOO big, too fast. She is scooting/crawling all over the place, can nearly sit up on her own, plays with toys like a pro and is pretty much taking on the world right before my eyes. Yes I cried, and then realized that this is just one of those moments ... my baby is not going to STAY the same FOREVER. She is going to grow up, and she will never be that still little bundle that she was the day we brought her home. The Lord is so good at giving us moments in our lifes to reflect on His goodness. Last night was one of those. Tatum is thriving, so smart, and curious, and active, and so very joyful. Over a year ago when I got pregnant, I had more doubts than you will ever know as to whether or not my child was going to make it, let a alone thrive in life, because of the quality of health my body posessed. Now I can see how the Lord has seen us through, and blessed us beyond measure!. In the end though, we slipped Tatum into her jammies, kissed her goodnight, and laid her down in her own room, only to assume that she would wake up multiple times a night because she was not in her swaddle and would wake herself up with her newly FREE arms and legs. But again, the Lord saw us through ... the second we put her down, she turned onto her belly and she was out ... slept through the whole night. When I woke up in the morning, I saw this .....

An empty bassinet ...
Then I went down the hallway and found this, I LOVE HER SO MUCH! ... (sorry its so dark)

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